Board Thread:Questions and Answers/@comment-4623180-20120919141837/@comment-5102537-20120920141340

Yes, Chris, this happening contributed to their hate for Uther (although she didn't really get to know the druids and spent only a very short time with them) but what I mean was that her self-hatred should have been healed by learning that she wasn't alone (there were more druids out there) and that she wasn't a monster. If you mean that maybe she blamed herself for the slaughtering because she was the reason why Uther ordered Arthur to kill them all, I know what you mean but still it actually added even more hate towards Uther and not towards herself, I think. I think she was well aware of the fact that she as well as the peaceful druids were only victims.

Another thing that might have helped her - and actually, meanwhile I'm convinced that she wouldn't have become so evil if she had gotten Merlin's help: if she knew of Merlin being Emrys and his destiny, she would have indeed had an ally in her attempt to end the homicides. It would have given her hope.

However, we can't be sure about that. Although I think it was a mistake that Merlin and Gaius abandoned her in the end, Morgana is quite powerhungry by nature which was shown in season one already when she always challenged Uther and was determined to win every "battle" with him. I'm not saying that she was evil but she wasn't an easy-going person but someone with whom you had to be careful. She has always been short tempered (like Uther and Arthur) and maybe, even if she had known of Merlin and sided with him, she might as well have reached for the throne and get rid of Arthur anyway.

It's hard to know..... I wish there was a second, parallell Merlin show with all the "what if's" that could show us what would have happened if things went differently :-D